New year new me time. again with the attempt to reinvent myself. although i know i will struggle with what others will think of me, even though i try so hard not to care. im doing me. yep i am. i am always waiting around for that guy and his acceptance and necessity. i realize now that i have been waiting for a guys acceptance my whole life and i have been sacrificing my heart my mind and my time. what have they sacrificed? nothing. i finally want to know what it feels for a guy to chase me and try to get my attention. honestly i just want to be appreciated, not just a piece of ass. so its time for me to be open for love if it becomes available and not force it to happen.
