Inappropriately Vocal No matter what I need to think about what I will become in the future.

Is it selfish that I feel that I don’t constantly want to be surrounded by all these people when I’m home? Is it fair that I judge the lives that these people live around me? I do know however that I shouldn’t be upset that everyone is doing the same thing. SAME EXACT THING, as when I left a few months ago. I do love everyone and want to wish the best for them, but they haven’t even taken any steps forward or backwards. I know that I am not responsible for anyone else, but its just so sad to see that no one really gives a fuck. People just living idly by and living. I am all for fun and getting fucked up and kicking it. At some point though you need to wake up and just realize where you are and that something else needs to be done. Its fucking ridiculous. I try to move on move forward change my life and when I come back home I am just back on a standstill. I need to be more productive and attempt success. I never finish anything I start so many things, but I never recover. We all need to wake up. WAKE UP.